breath of heaven
Dec. 30th, 2008 09:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hawkwing_lbIt has been a blessedly peaceful day. The which I needed, but did not know.
Sometimes it's passing hard to see the forest for the trees. I never thought, you see, to see life itself as a benediction. I have gained so much this year, in everything that matters. Grown some, I hope, too. And if I have a deeper understanding, and a more abiding fear, of loss, I suspect it should count as a small price.
It's something, to find kindness and friendship unlooked-for. And keep finding it, over and again. I can only hope to be worthy of it.
I have some resolutions for 2009. But I will put them behind a cut, to spare the innocent.
Resolutions:
College: survive the year with a II.1 average. Fieldschool and/or job in the summer.
Climbing: lead rated 5+ routes. Start toproping 6b routes.
Running: two miles, twenty minutes, no stopping. I can do it, I hope.
Writing: 40K words of duellist, for a total of 70K. One short story.
And the usual things. Be a better person. More fair, more just, more generous, more kind. More honest, more disciplined, less prone to fits of weary cynical self-pity.
Well, that last may not be possible. (Someone said to me once that happiness lies in the art of the possible, but I can't remember who.) Still, I mean to try.
Tomorrow, there will be essay, from morning til night. But not until tomorrow.
Sometimes it's passing hard to see the forest for the trees. I never thought, you see, to see life itself as a benediction. I have gained so much this year, in everything that matters. Grown some, I hope, too. And if I have a deeper understanding, and a more abiding fear, of loss, I suspect it should count as a small price.
It's something, to find kindness and friendship unlooked-for. And keep finding it, over and again. I can only hope to be worthy of it.
I have some resolutions for 2009. But I will put them behind a cut, to spare the innocent.
Resolutions:
College: survive the year with a II.1 average. Fieldschool and/or job in the summer.
Climbing: lead rated 5+ routes. Start toproping 6b routes.
Running: two miles, twenty minutes, no stopping. I can do it, I hope.
Writing: 40K words of duellist, for a total of 70K. One short story.
And the usual things. Be a better person. More fair, more just, more generous, more kind. More honest, more disciplined, less prone to fits of weary cynical self-pity.
Well, that last may not be possible. (Someone said to me once that happiness lies in the art of the possible, but I can't remember who.) Still, I mean to try.
Tomorrow, there will be essay, from morning til night. But not until tomorrow.
