Sigh

I am failing to be a perfect competent human. Need exercise, have no motivations to get some: need to get on with thesis, completely distractible today.

The thought of getting on the train and going to town is giving me shortness of breath. I suspect some lurking anxiety interferes. I suspect anxiety is understandable, given... circumstances relating to family health.

The mechanisms I developed to manage my mental health are not are present in functioning train. So. In conclusion.

SIGH.