Whine, moan, whinge
Aug. 15th, 2006 06:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hawkwing_lbLately, for certain values of lately, I've been feeling pretty much continuously down. Not depressed down, but lacking in energy, impetus, initiative, drive, and braincells. This feeling has been going on for at two weeks that I'm certain of, and perhaps a month before that when I was blaming all my downers on shiftwork.
It also corresponds, roughly - with, I mean, perhaps a month's margin of error - to the period where I stopped taking selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors. AKA anti-depressants.
Then again, it also corresponds to a period where my sleeping and eating patterns got severely fucked up.
But my sleeping and eating patterns are no longer severely fucked up: in fact, I've almost got them back on track. And yet I still feel down.
Does this mean, then, that I need medications to regulate my brain chemicals? Or does it simply mean that I've finally killed enough braincells to make me stupid? Or does it just mean I need to get my thyroid hormone replacement dosage adjusted*?
Because I feel stupid-slow. Lethargic. And this could be a thyroxine issue, or it could be a depressant issue, or it could be a lifestyle issue (I need to be doing more exercise, but I don't have the initiative or feel I have the energy, bleh), or it could be some other kind of thing.
And if I visit the doctor, I will being spending fifty euro to be told a)I have nothing wrong with me, b)he doesn't know what's wrong with me, or c)yes, we can do something about this, but the tests/prescription will cost another fifty euro and oh, come back in a couple of weeks.
There are times when I hate my life, and my self. Today is one of them.
*I have hypothyroidism. Occasionally it complicates things.
It also corresponds, roughly - with, I mean, perhaps a month's margin of error - to the period where I stopped taking selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors. AKA anti-depressants.
Then again, it also corresponds to a period where my sleeping and eating patterns got severely fucked up.
But my sleeping and eating patterns are no longer severely fucked up: in fact, I've almost got them back on track. And yet I still feel down.
Does this mean, then, that I need medications to regulate my brain chemicals? Or does it simply mean that I've finally killed enough braincells to make me stupid? Or does it just mean I need to get my thyroid hormone replacement dosage adjusted*?
Because I feel stupid-slow. Lethargic. And this could be a thyroxine issue, or it could be a depressant issue, or it could be a lifestyle issue (I need to be doing more exercise, but I don't have the initiative or feel I have the energy, bleh), or it could be some other kind of thing.
And if I visit the doctor, I will being spending fifty euro to be told a)I have nothing wrong with me, b)he doesn't know what's wrong with me, or c)yes, we can do something about this, but the tests/prescription will cost another fifty euro and oh, come back in a couple of weeks.
There are times when I hate my life, and my self. Today is one of them.
*I have hypothyroidism. Occasionally it complicates things.
