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Jan. 21st, 2008 07:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hawkwing_lbOkay.
Loss of blood, check. Lack of proper nutrition, check. Disturbed sleep schedule, check. Inadequate exercise, due to a combination of the above and plain old laziness, check.
Is it any wonder that a)my brain hasn't been working properly for the past few days, and b)adjunct to a)above, I started sliding down the well again?
Answer: No.
*is fool*
*resolves to try harder*
...gods, I'm tired of this. Fuck up even for a couple of days, and I start wanting to hide in corners again. And I still feel as though I'm coming down with something, damnit.
And I have to make my mind up this week whether or not I'm going for scholarship exams. On top of pre-existing essay deadlines.
Maybe I shouldn't take any of this so seriously? But knowing I could walk away and actually wanting to do it are two different things. And I don't think I'm capable of anything other than the Full On and Really Off approaches.
Maybe, I should accept that by trying to do everything I'm always going to fail at something(s), cut myself some slack, and hope others do too.
(Essays, lectures, Greek, schols, climbing, gym, karate, writing, writing for the Record, archsoc, critting. None of which are actually downtime.)
So. Tired.
Loss of blood, check. Lack of proper nutrition, check. Disturbed sleep schedule, check. Inadequate exercise, due to a combination of the above and plain old laziness, check.
Is it any wonder that a)my brain hasn't been working properly for the past few days, and b)adjunct to a)above, I started sliding down the well again?
Answer: No.
*is fool*
*resolves to try harder*
...gods, I'm tired of this. Fuck up even for a couple of days, and I start wanting to hide in corners again. And I still feel as though I'm coming down with something, damnit.
And I have to make my mind up this week whether or not I'm going for scholarship exams. On top of pre-existing essay deadlines.
Maybe I shouldn't take any of this so seriously? But knowing I could walk away and actually wanting to do it are two different things. And I don't think I'm capable of anything other than the Full On and Really Off approaches.
Maybe, I should accept that by trying to do everything I'm always going to fail at something(s), cut myself some slack, and hope others do too.
(Essays, lectures, Greek, schols, climbing, gym, karate, writing, writing for the Record, archsoc, critting. None of which are actually downtime.)
So. Tired.
