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[hawkwing_lb]

I am, it appears, not marvellously eloquent, nor marvellously articulate of late. Nor, indeed, a scintillating conversationalist.

I'm awkard, and inarticulate, and undereducated in entirely too many things. And I'm tall enough to loom over most of my mates, which is disconcerting at the least.

*sigh*

Oh, and I'm supposed to be a responsible adult, too. How weird is that?

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[rysmiel.livejournal.com]

I did the growth spurt and taller than most of my peers thing when I was thirteen, and I still catch myself doing "no, I'm really small and harmless" body language things without thinking; it's where my instinct for sitting on the floor when other people are in chairs comes from, I think. So you have my sympathy with perhaps a bit more direct identification and experience than I might have with other bothersome things.

fwiw, I find your communication of stuff entirely fine and congenial; "inarticulate" is not a descriptor that would have come to mind.

Responsible adult stuff really is weird. Married and taxpayer and homeowner and all that stuff and it still feels like someone's made a mistake somewhere, and that the finishing high school and planning for what to do next stuff that zorinth is doing at the moment is a life stage I don't recall ever being properly finished with, and now the person I'm parenting is doing it.

*hug*

[hawkwing-lb.livejournal.com]

Yeah. By the time I was twelve I was already what, pushing 5'7? I'm 5'9 now, and that kinda seems to be above the general average. Karate used to help me be comfortable with my size and not feel all elbows, so I guess I really need to go back to it soon. :)

I'm inarticulate in person. Lots of 'ums' and repeated words, and a tendency to follow one single conversational path like a dog after a bone. Lately it seems more pronounced, but maybe I'm just starting to get peopled out.

[rysmiel.livejournal.com]

I'm inarticulate in person. Lots of 'ums' and repeated words, and a tendency to follow one single conversational path like a dog after a bone.

The thought "oh, that's just perfectly normal OCD, doesn't everyone do that ?" may not be the most helpful in the world, here.

[hawkwing-lb.livejournal.com]

*is not alone*

Now I feel much better about it. :)

[etumukutenyak.livejournal.com]

I noticed that when I was spending a lot of time doing heavy thinking and cramming that my mental powers (such as they are) were greatly diminished. As if only so much energy can be produced by the brain (Scotty! We need more power!) and the dilithium crystals were slowly cracking under the strain.

So, when you are finished with school -- or at least the really intense parts -- you may well find your articulation and eloquence rapidly becoming more scintillating. Undereducation is relative after all, and you will find areas of expertise (or of enthusiasm) as you go along. I myself find engineers and historians quite intimidating, and then I remind myself of the surgeries I've performed and I don't feel so small.

Responsible adulthood is probably never going to feel right. I still catch myself thinking that I can fake it really well, but one of these days I'm going to get caught pretending to be an adult..and then all heck will break loose. Just don't tell anyone.

;-)

[hawkwing-lb.livejournal.com]

I didn't think I was thinking that much. :P (Haven't started revising again yet: that's for next week.)

I keep running into smart educated people. Well, lecturers. And I have this unfortunate craving to know stuff. And not sound stupid in public. :)

I won't tell if you won't. :P

[etumukutenyak.livejournal.com]

The craving to know stuff, well -- that's why you're in uni, eh? The hardest lesson for me to learn, since I was one of those know-it-all kids (corrected teachers' spelling errors all the time, etc., etc.) was how to ask questions. After all, smart people have the answers, right?

Well, not exactly. When you reach a certain point, you switch from demonstrating your smarts by "having answers" to "having questions". That means the smart people are the ones asking all the questions. It's a different frame of mind.

As for lecturers, just remember this: they spend a lot of time thinking and talking about those topics, so they're going to sound very smart indeed. I'll bet a good question will get them thinking, and when they start thinking, they're going to be saying "Um" and repeating themselves too. ;-)

I'm not telling anyone anything. :-)

[hawkwing-lb.livejournal.com]

:)

[davefreer.livejournal.com]

'responsible adult'. Ha. responsible maybe. But adult as in 'finished growing' - it's not just about inches - it's brain stuff. I'm not quite ready for that myself. And 5'9" not overwhelming tall. I know a lass who is 6'3" and junoesque in the bargain - she has real issues - but none she hasn't been able to beat to pulp. Seriously, articulate comes with practice, and under-educated is a relative thing, a question of perception and a steadily changing one.

[hawkwing-lb.livejournal.com]

This is not a cry for help. :P