as long as you're down on your knees

You know, I really need to get around this inability to settle down and study. It might just prove problematic.

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I have a confession.

For the last three - four? - months, I haven't had the emotional energy to think about writing original fiction. I am sure many people might admit this to be quite normal, with a thesis and final year exams to dwell upon.

On the other hand, I've started writing fanfiction in that span of time. It doesn't require investment. It doesn't matter to me in the same way. It started as a way to keep my hand in, to keep some half-assed memory of how to write sentences and paragraphs that aren't academic nonsense. But I've written something like fifteen thousand words of it in the last month alone. It doesn't require commitment.

Perhaps it says something about me that I find this worrying.

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Today, I committed the extravagance of purchasing new tshirts. It feels very unusual, since it's almost a year since I bought a tshirt.

(Yes. I wear things until they fall apart and then some.)

as long as you're down on your knees

You know, I really need to get around this inability to settle down and study. It might just prove problematic.

---

I have a confession.

For the last three - four? - months, I haven't had the emotional energy to think about writing original fiction. I am sure many people might admit this to be quite normal, with a thesis and final year exams to dwell upon.

On the other hand, I've started writing fanfiction in that span of time. It doesn't require investment. It doesn't matter to me in the same way. It started as a way to keep my hand in, to keep some half-assed memory of how to write sentences and paragraphs that aren't academic nonsense. But I've written something like fifteen thousand words of it in the last month alone. It doesn't require commitment.

Perhaps it says something about me that I find this worrying.

---

Today, I committed the extravagance of purchasing new tshirts. It feels very unusual, since it's almost a year since I bought a tshirt.

(Yes. I wear things until they fall apart and then some.)

Lazy Sunday afternoons...

It's impossible to work when this is the first properly warm day of the year. Fifteen degrees! Sunshine! Shorts weather!

So I went for a painful twenty-minute run on one of the beaches - about a mile and a half, I think - enjoying the pleasant shocking warmth all the way. And there was paddling. The sea's still quite cold. Then there was food at the good local food place, and there was an encounter with a very friendly tabby kitten who's going to grow up into a gorgeous cat. (I wanted to abduct him. He was very friendly.)

And now there is staring out my window at warmth and sunshine and blue skies and green grass.

That was a long winter. I don't think I quite realised how long until now.

Lazy Sunday afternoons...

It's impossible to work when this is the first properly warm day of the year. Fifteen degrees! Sunshine! Shorts weather!

So I went for a painful twenty-minute run on one of the beaches - about a mile and a half, I think - enjoying the pleasant shocking warmth all the way. And there was paddling. The sea's still quite cold. Then there was food at the good local food place, and there was an encounter with a very friendly tabby kitten who's going to grow up into a gorgeous cat. (I wanted to abduct him. He was very friendly.)

And now there is staring out my window at warmth and sunshine and blue skies and green grass.

That was a long winter. I don't think I quite realised how long until now.