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hawkwing_lbSuccess! Triumph! Things going right!
I spent the weekend mostly insomniac and playing videogames, but when I woke up at 1500 yesterday (after five hours' day-sleeping) I felt like myself for the first time in six or seven weeks. (It's been so long I have lost track of time spent bouncing between infections.)
It's shocking, how little I realised how strongly I was affected, until I felt more myself again. Yesterday for the first time I could walk three miles in a reasonable timeframe and still feel alive after: I could string words together while writing a review in ways that did not make me feel as though I was clawing through cotton wool.
I still have very little endurance. For example, today I've managed to spend a little time in the gym and read a book, and now I'm really tired - but it's not the tiredness of sick weakness so much as the tiredness of a body long in enforced idleness, only recently restored to activity. Here is hoping that I avoid yet another relapse into awfulness.
Having lost six weeks of work (and they are lost weeks: I'm sure I must have done something other than keep up with the column for Tor.com, but I have no memory of doing thesis work after the end of September [if I read a book for research, I have no recollection of either book or contents], and if anything was writ during that time, doubtless it will only need to be redone), I really need to get my head around to what comes properly next.
Searching back through my emails, I find that I sent my supervisor a set of draft chapters on the 14th of October, and added: "In the remainder of the year - and up to March of 2014 if necessary - it is my goal to write two further draft chapters: one on comparative (modern) faith-healing and one which takes Aelius Aristides as a case study. Thereafter it is my plan to put all this material in proper order and construct the through-line of my thematic argument regarding the nature of experience and healing cult."
(Clearly I did do some work in early October. I just can't remember it.)
So I should settle in to do the comparative chapter. Good. There's a plan to be made for that, but at least I know what comes next now.
I spent the weekend mostly insomniac and playing videogames, but when I woke up at 1500 yesterday (after five hours' day-sleeping) I felt like myself for the first time in six or seven weeks. (It's been so long I have lost track of time spent bouncing between infections.)
It's shocking, how little I realised how strongly I was affected, until I felt more myself again. Yesterday for the first time I could walk three miles in a reasonable timeframe and still feel alive after: I could string words together while writing a review in ways that did not make me feel as though I was clawing through cotton wool.
I still have very little endurance. For example, today I've managed to spend a little time in the gym and read a book, and now I'm really tired - but it's not the tiredness of sick weakness so much as the tiredness of a body long in enforced idleness, only recently restored to activity. Here is hoping that I avoid yet another relapse into awfulness.
Having lost six weeks of work (and they are lost weeks: I'm sure I must have done something other than keep up with the column for Tor.com, but I have no memory of doing thesis work after the end of September [if I read a book for research, I have no recollection of either book or contents], and if anything was writ during that time, doubtless it will only need to be redone), I really need to get my head around to what comes properly next.
Searching back through my emails, I find that I sent my supervisor a set of draft chapters on the 14th of October, and added: "In the remainder of the year - and up to March of 2014 if necessary - it is my goal to write two further draft chapters: one on comparative (modern) faith-healing and one which takes Aelius Aristides as a case study. Thereafter it is my plan to put all this material in proper order and construct the through-line of my thematic argument regarding the nature of experience and healing cult."
(Clearly I did do some work in early October. I just can't remember it.)
So I should settle in to do the comparative chapter. Good. There's a plan to be made for that, but at least I know what comes next now.
