DOOM

[hawkwing_lb]

I'm scattered and all at sea, lately. And OPPRESSED by feelings of DOOM. I walked for three hours tonight to drive away suicidal ideations. I have blisters now. It helped, but not enough. This is the way of things when there are external reasons to have a SAD. (And a DOOM.)

(I'm broke, I'm worried about the future, and I'm operating right up to the red limit of my comfort zone both in terms of Interacting With Other Humans Professionally and in terms of intellectual capability with regard to my thesis and the other commitments which I have taken on. I also remain convinced that being up at that red limit is a sign of my manifest failures as a human being.)

I do not say this to solicit pity. Merely to make note for myself.

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Thanks.