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Castles in the air; also, spamming LJ
Aug. 19th, 2006 09:23 pmOutside my window it is dark. Already.
I blame the rain - which is hammering down as though wet weather is going out of fashion - but really, where'd the summer go? It's autumn now, and only going to get darker.
Which is depressing, in a way, until I remember that my brain works better in cold weather.
The closer it gets to October the more nervous I get about returning to college. I'm repeating my first year, with a change of subjects. Ancient history and archaeology remains, to be combined with biblical and theological studies.
I don't want to make a fool of myself again. And I need to get another job soon, as I don't qualify for a maintenance grant on a repeat year.
Worrying over things I can't alter will only give me ulcers and poor concentration. Instead, I shall construct castles in the air and daydream about spending a month next summer in Senegal and a week or two going diving in the Canary Islands. And then perhaps in 2008 I can do a transcontinental trip across Canada, maybe get in on a Worldcon on the way home, and do a divemaster course in Lanzarote. And perhaps in 2009 there will be a few months' archaeological digging in North Africa or the Med, and maybe an opportunity to visit Central Asia. And in 2010 I will graduate with first class honours and be offered an opportunity to take a Master's degree at Oxford.
Pleasant imaginings, though most likely beyond my financial means. Still, one may strive, and one may hope.
And there's always dreaming, too. :-)
I blame the rain - which is hammering down as though wet weather is going out of fashion - but really, where'd the summer go? It's autumn now, and only going to get darker.
Which is depressing, in a way, until I remember that my brain works better in cold weather.
The closer it gets to October the more nervous I get about returning to college. I'm repeating my first year, with a change of subjects. Ancient history and archaeology remains, to be combined with biblical and theological studies.
I don't want to make a fool of myself again. And I need to get another job soon, as I don't qualify for a maintenance grant on a repeat year.
Worrying over things I can't alter will only give me ulcers and poor concentration. Instead, I shall construct castles in the air and daydream about spending a month next summer in Senegal and a week or two going diving in the Canary Islands. And then perhaps in 2008 I can do a transcontinental trip across Canada, maybe get in on a Worldcon on the way home, and do a divemaster course in Lanzarote. And perhaps in 2009 there will be a few months' archaeological digging in North Africa or the Med, and maybe an opportunity to visit Central Asia. And in 2010 I will graduate with first class honours and be offered an opportunity to take a Master's degree at Oxford.
Pleasant imaginings, though most likely beyond my financial means. Still, one may strive, and one may hope.
And there's always dreaming, too. :-)
